Stuck- Getting closer to recent

Have you ever been stuck?

The fear and anxiety is overwhelming

In an instant your heart jumps to a high rate and adrenaline kicks in as you realize no matter how hard you try, you're stuck

But usually, if you're lucky, the experience is momentary and passing 

But I've been immobilized for far longer than minutes 

See I've been stuck like molasses made mortal. 

Frozen for months in this sticky state of failed expectations and lack of ambition

It's remembering the days when you were a dinosaur

Before you got stuck, frozen like fossilized time capsules

Reliving past failures

Past futures

Shit didn't I already work this job?

Haven't I already managed this disease?

When did I trade my brighter future for a pause from reality and a breath of fresh air?

Growing up you always hear the grass is greener, but I think I must be colorblind cause I've been stuck roaming from pasture to prairie praying for a glimpse of anything brighter than my now

My sunrises and sunsets only tinge amber like an exhibit on display 

The moment I got stuck 

I let that fear and adrenaline freeze me like medusa was staring down my future

putting me in the past, 

I almost ended up building my home on memory lane, rather than walking down it

Forgot that I could just keep going

That the only thing I was stuck in was the past 

See, The difference between being stuck for a moment

And being stuck in a moment

Is an eternity

And I'm only just now getting free