love addiction

I have an addiction

You see every night I inject myself with infatuation

So I can wake up and see you

I can hold you

I can remember that you always wore strawberry lip gloss

And had cute dimples every time you smiled

See I brought needle to skin

But I didn’t feel pain

Only the warmth of you next to me

I reminisced of plans past

And I see a bright future with kids

And we both planned to be spacemen

But summer day dreams freeze in winter

And things got messed up

When middle school came around

Awesome friendships

Became awkward glances.

And movie trips became more about behind the scenes

Then what was on the big screen

And flashy new advertisements

Showed flawed promises of future friends

But when we grew apart I relied on a needle

See I learned that LSD or PCP may be great for druggies

But all I needed was you

So when I moved to NC

You just moved on

And all I have left to remember you by is a needle

But when I tell a needle I love you

It doesn’t reciprocate

So I stop taking my daily dose of reality

Because I wanted to take you back in time with me

To play dates past

Because I don’t want to just walk down memory lane

I want to build my house on it

And live in the future

We created in the past.