poem for my fallen angel friend

Her hair was blonde and yellow like gold and her personality screamed in her eyes

but i swear that when i see her

i only see someone falling and looking for a place to grab

she fell into highschool

she fell into depression

she fell in and out of relationships

i used to think she had bad balance but i realize she’s jumping, not tripping

like she was skydiving from a life to her nightmares

she spilled her fears in with her hair dye and let others see her monsters on her face but she hid them under makeup

so i swear, i was the only one who saw her rip her halo off and throw it away like a frisbee

i’m just glad i caught it in time

I once called her friend but i saw scars in her mascara and wondered if she was dying

or just crying

but no one can cover up bullet holes

with blush

so there were times when you could see the cracks in her mask

she plastered an image to her face

so tight i swear that when the light hit it, it almost looked real

but an angel is always an angel so when i saw her come in with cut marks on her face

and a prescription in her hand, i wondered why she would gladly give up the right to fly

I was with her when we both were idiots and grabbed onto an escape, because i was sick of seeing people in pain, and she was just sick

but we both fell that day the difference is i stopped and tried to extend a hand but at that point i realized she was falling with a smirk on her face like she enjoyed sinking down

she pretended to be fine but she was never quite the same after that day

I learned then that we dont live in movies or television because life is more like a lullaby than a box of chocolates

and she must have been singing ring around the rosy by herself because she fell down

If she ever hears this,

i imagine she’ll hate me because she has begun to enjoy living while falling

she tethers herself but wont ever pull the rip-chord

it hurt to much to see you give up being an angel,

so i wrote you this poem to tell you

that when your ready,

i can give you your halo back and you can pick up those wings again and fly back up

you are stronger than most

and you can stop falling and start flying but first, you have to remember the difference